Post Whole30 Post Insanity Life

I finished both Whole30 and my first full round of Insanity around the same time, and boy was my body feeling happy at me. Of course, I started Whole30 PMSing, so guess how I went into my post Whole30? Today, was probably the height of my PMS and I came home and ate spoonfuls of Almond Butter, took a nap, and hated myself a little bit. I’m hoping by tomorrow (the normal day of hormonal rebalance for me) I can get out of this hole.

So, besides PMS being full-blown, what have I been doing since and how has reintroduction been for me? Well, I tried wine for the first time on Saturday and after one glass, I was drunk and two hours later, I felt hungover. I definitely want to try to have a drink again this weekend because I don’t want to be hungover at my wedding and I do want to be able to drink to try to drink a little bit at my wedding. I also had a taste (like the tiniest) of my friend’s macarons (YUM!!). I was terrified that eating one bite would lead me into a spiral of “OMG GIVE ME ALL THE SUGAR I’M GONNA EAT A WHOLE CONTAINER!!!” Fortunately, I wasn’t craving sugar after that, nor did I want more than the bite I had, not because it wasn’t delicious, more so because it was good and I was satisfied. Besides that, I’ve been compliant (but relying on Almond butter, because PMS) and okay not being as good at eating my pre and post workout…because I feel like my workouts are not as hardcore. But I need to stop telling myself that, because I’m still working out and I still need the fuel.

I was scared that after Insanity, I wouldn’t be able to get into a workout routine, but so far, I’ve still been able to kick my butt to wake up at 5 AM and workout. So far, yesterday I did a kettlebell workout and today I went for a 4-mile run. I must say, Insanity has done wonders on my running stamina and what usually is a painful run for me, was easy breezy. Tomorrow, I plan to hit the gym for the first time in a month! I have gymphobia because of the amount of people there, but hopefully 5AM will be empty enough for me to feel comfortable.

To summarize, I’m still super happy with my delicious fulfilling meals and am having an awesome time changing up my workouts. I’m still guilty of almond butter, so I will no longer buy any. I know this sounds like a whole lot of being hard on myself, but to be honest I’m not struggling. Most of the reintroduction will have to come naturally to me, and right now, taking it easy and slow is exactly what I need.

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To New Beginnings!

Hey Guys! My wedding is in exactly two weeks! I started this space to reflect on my feelings, and then I landed on this health journey, but I’m going to start a balance of the two. I thought that wedding planning would be most stressful right before the wedding, but as of last week, it felt like this weight has been lifted from my shoulders. In fact, I feel zen AF. That’s not to say, I still don’t have things to do for the wedding, but I think the reality of actually being married to someone is finally sinking in. I am overjoyed to finally have the anticipation of a wedding be gone and to be able to marry my closest, dearest, and nearest friend these past few years.

Like all humans, we are both flawed. Like all friendships, we have our differences. But throughout this process, I’ve found more amazing crevices in this other human’s soul. We’ve reached deeper connections through sharing our deepest fears. Thoughts to be shared in detail possibly never or for another time, I had been deeply wounded by a few people closest to me throughout this whole wedding planning process. Some in ways that they will never understand or be enlightened to. In a sense, I’ve been emotionally grieving the loss of these people in my life as I no longer wish to surround myself with their toxic energy. The closer I get to my soon-to-be husband, the more ready I am to cut ties with the years of pain and negativity that these people have landed on me. The wedding planning stress (for me) has really lied heavily (almost completely) in the stress that comes from someone else’s emotional guilt-tripping, abuse, and inability to admit wrong-doing towards you (and therefore placing all blame on you).

I’ve been reflecting a lot on whether the fault lays in me, or the other parties. I’ve finally come to the conclusion that love feels a certain way and positivity radiates a certain light. I want to lead the rest of my life with a lightness and positivity that holds no space for competition, guilt, toxicity, and jealousy. I want to go into my marriage upholding my values to the people who have brought me to this point (regardless of how they’ve treated me) but I am excited to move on and cut ties as I enter this new chapter in my life. I thank my soon-to-be-husband for showing me unconditional love, positivity, lightness, and perseverance. My heart is certainly full, and I’m excited to let some of that emotional weight go.

Whole30 Reflection

In completing the Whole30, I’ve been having a hard time sharing my feelings (for me that’s like a 2 day lag) about accomplishing the goal. I think my hesitation with sharing though, comes more from the fact that I don’t feel that I am done with this journey (cheesily, I’ve only just begun).  I’m very happy with where I am at and I want to continue eating this way for as long as no true cravings or special occasions come up.

The Whole30 journey is different for everyone and everyone’s sense of epiphanies comes from different realms in their lives. I haven’t had such mental clarity and self-awareness as I do now. In evaluating my Whole30 journey, I think I shared that my willingness to start was because I was having a really hard time staying awake after my meals and a really bad reaction to sugar and certain foods (like hummus and pita chips would cause immediate naps). If I were to fully evaluate my life, I was also relying on alcohol a lot for stress, which for me, often leads to a downhill battle of other bad habits (binge watching TV, stress eating, excessive napping, etc.).

On top of this all, wedding planning and navigating my first year of teaching has been such a battle on my self-confidence. Wedding-wise, I pretty much feel like every type of beauty – regime suggestion has been made on me by various vendors (go get facials, your skin is breaking out, your skin is dehydrated, your skin is oily, you need your eyebrows threaded, you need a haircut, you need to lose weight, you should start working out etc etc.). The amount of pressure to “look your best” for one day of your life, is ridiculous to me…but I’m also EXTREMELY hard on myself and am human enough to admit I do feel the pressure. Which brings me to navigating my first year as a teacher, I’m constantly feeling inadequate. Though what I do for a living now brings me immense joy, I have a really hard time processing the fact that I can’t reach every single student in my class and some students have very little hope for their future (because that’s the reality of it). But again, I am human and feel that it is my responsibility to reach every single student, and beat myself up when I give out failing grades to 20/27 math tests yet again after re-teaching, differentiating, and planning. So, yes, I’ve been really stressed on top of the normal relationship, familial, friendship, financial maintenance stress items that pop up. I was pushing this under the rug for some time, but now I acknowledge, this is a lot for me to deal with.

So, when my friend, Amy, mentioned the Whole30, it felt like my calling to do something to make myself feel better and to love myself a little bit more. I was already on a workout routine, but I wanted more clarity and energy.  Which is why my number one rule was that, I wouldn’t do Whole30 if it stressed me out more than it did me good. And it didn’t! To be honest, I didn’t find Whole30 to be as challenging as when I first became pescatarian. I had more judgment in that element in my life than I’ve ever gotten doing Whole30 (and still do). I think mainly because when I talk about Whole30 I share the abundance of things that are added to your diet and people don’t see it as a “oh you can’t have…” I also think, there is a logical connection to “oh, I can’t have that pastry because I have a bad reaction to sugar” as opposed to “oh, I don’t eat meat for moral reasons”. If people are interested, I talk about it more and I have gotten pretty good at reading when people aren’t, so I just don’t. I am not big on pushing things on other people, but in just talking lightly about it, I convinced a couple of people to start it and that makes me happy.

So, what Whole30 brought me was a routine meal plan that helped me to maintain my weight (amp up my workouts) and provide me energy. It also allowed me to do this without sacrificing foods I truly love (vegetables, fruits, nuts, eggs, and seafood). I am so much more positive that this step in self-care is essential to providing mental clarity into other aspects of life. I understand now that Whole30 will not change the things that overwhelm me mentally, but will help me manage that stress in a healthful way. I know that Whole30 will not change how hard I am on myself (as weigh in and progress pics have proven), but I do notice some physical gains I can’t ignore. For example, I went to my first Corepower Yoga class in two weeks (I normally don’t work out in front of a mirror) and I couldn’t ignore how strong my arms looked. Whether it’s Whole30 or from my workout routine (or both), it doesn’t really matter anymore. More importantly Whole30 has given me a whole new element of self-love and self-care I have been looking for. I’m just super happy that I’ve found a new (sustainable) way to prep and eat my food so that the food I eat is nourishing me as opposed to poisoning me. I’m still me to the core and need immense encouragement to be nice to myself, but I have really started to embrace certain things about myself more. This process really is an experiment you have to try for yourself. Personalize it, but it’s been proven through my amazing support group (SHOUTOUT TO YOUR ALL OF YOUR AMAZINGNESS!!!!) and now a newly convinced 14-day follower that by day 12-16 you’ll understand and feel the difference.

The last thing I want to share is that I do not judge anyone else for their lifestyle choices, truly. I just encourage anyone who feels they need to make a change to just do it. I’ve been taking small incremental risk-taking steps these past few years as I educate myself and grow as a person and it’s grown from buying a pair of rollerblades, to working out, to changing careers to Whole30. You’re in charge of your life and you’re responsible for your health. I could go on about our corrupt food industry, but it’d lay out some judgment seeds. But, if you are looking for a change, and this is interesting to you, then DO IT! If not, but you’re looking for other changes, DO THAT!! If you’re already happy with yourself, then FUCK YEAH, I’M ALSO SUPER HAPPY FOR YOU!! It’s like that song, “If you want to sing out, sing out”… Self-efficacy!! YEAH!!!

TO THE FINISH LINE!

Tomorrow is my Day 30, as in, my last day on the Whole30! That means I only have to survive 3 more compliant meals and I’m done? But, how will I ever go back to how I was eating before? We had a long drive out to San Diego and on the way back, I was reflecting on my biggest pitfall during Whole30 and what I’m nervous about with having “freedom” again. One thing this Whole 30 is I have been beating myself up for snacking and the two times I ate an RX bar. I also eat a few berries after dinner because I love blackberries and I wouldn’t want to eat them any other way. I just really enjoy fruit on their own and I find it weird in most salads (except, see below). But, Whole30 suggests that you add fruit to your savory food and…I can’t really get behind that. In fact, every time I do something that isn’t “Whole 30 ideal” I kind of feel guilty. Then I go on the forum to see if what I’m doing is okay, and most likely there are two or three posts with someone who has the same concern. Today, I finally read (on some section of the website) that doing Whole30 in an “ideal” way is really hard. Doing the Whole30 at all and maintaining compliant is already an accomplishment in itself. So, I’m going to try my best, post 30 to continue to not give myself too much guilt for snacking or eating things. I think the stress that comes with that would make anyone’s relationship to food really sad and unhealthy. I guess as long as I’m not eating an RX bar every day or 5 a day or eating many spoonfuls of almond butter in one sitting, It’s okay to just give my body what it feels it needs in the moment. I also know that there are healthier options, but I do not always have those options readily available to me and I’ve found amazing alternatives to the snacks I was eating before. As far as my Whole30, I’ve been having a great time with the foods and I’ve come to the conclusion that I really enjoy my own cooking (I always kind of have), but Whole30 has given me a reason to cook for myself more. For example, I ate at a restaurant today and the food felt SO oily to me, and it was delicious, just not controlled by me to taste just the way I like it. So, before I head into my last day,  I just want to give a preview of my favorite thing I make each week. I never felt the need to post it before because, well, it is really plain, but that’s just how I like my stuff. Cooked with the perfect technique, with simple seasonings.

This is my version of an egg salad  – apples, dill, green onion, celery, hard boiled egg, some olive oil, salt and pepper. Super simple, mayo-less, and just the way I like it. It’s even better with some avo and the greens I pour it on. I LOVE egg salad. In high school, I would make egg/potato salad and eat the entire batch in one sitting. No longer do I do that, but I do treat this particular salad as a treat…because it’s so good to me. I mean, I feel like all of my meals now are treats. 🙂

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Whole30 and Trader Joe’s

My love affair with Trader Joe’s is long and unwavering. I am a TJ loyalist and so when I decided to go on the Whole30, a big part of my decision was, “Can I still shop at Trader Joe’s?” I followed Trader Joe’s from their humble and terrible refrigeration beginnings. If anyone remembers what I’m talking about, their produce ALWAYS went bad (and I found out it’s because they didn’t have enough fridges to keep the temps for certain produce). I almost gave up on the little grocery that could, despite their shelves of delicious packaged goods, but I’m SOO glad I didn’t. (Yes, I think they fixed the refrigeration problem)

There are so many reasons why I love Trader Joe’s and here are some of them:

  • Friendly Staff Members – I love shopping for groceries and having happy people help me out, it makes buying food so much less of an errand and more of an experience.
  • Their Buyers Follow Food Trends – Their buyers know what’s up before a lot of consumers know what’s up. I saw Riced Cauliflower in the case, before most other places started selling it. I die for their Soy Creamer (which is NOT Whole30 compliant) and theirs is BY FAR, the best product out there. They find vendors and brands that make simple, yet quality products and sometimes will repackage it as their own. Since I used to work in produce, I followed produce trends and TJ was always on top of every single seasonal item, from endives to kiwi berries.
  • Their Packs are GREAT for non-family sized families – Whether I was single, or now engaged and living with my fiance, their pack sizes were perfect for my lifestyle. I could buy a variety of produce (pre-packed or pre-cut) without having to throw half of anything away because it was just for one, or two.
  • A good amount of organic items – Almost all of their produce has an organic offering as well. They carry things that are in season.
  • Amazing frozen protein products – I know most people shudder at the idea of frozen anything, but their scallops and wild blue shrimp are great quality and very cost effective.

I could go on, about their snacks mainly, but that’s not Whole30 Kosher, but here is a picture and list of pantry items that I’ve bought from Trader Joe’s that is Whole30 compliant. I’ll talk about each one below.

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Butternut Squash Zig Zags – Instead of breaking down a full butternut squash, this is a convenient way to cook butternut squash. I will recommend steaming or roasting them with olive pepper, salt and sea salt (my holy trinity and typical seasoning)

Riced Cauliflower – I also mix this with their Broccoli Cauliflower and it’s good sauteed in with different vegetables. I like adding green onions to this, but it’s good by itself. It’s a fast way to cook cauliflower.

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I mean, the colors!


Healthy 8 Chopped Veggie Mix
 – I have this almost EVERY morning with my breakfast, the vegetables inside marry the coconut oil so well with scrambled eggs. There are carrots, celery, radish, jicama, green and red cabbage, bell peppers, and broccoli stems. I’m more of a fan of these because I feel that this is a product that saves other produce that would normally go to waste and they repackage it as a convenient item to use. (sustainable and delicious!)

Eggs  – These eggs are delicious, this is the kind I get, they only sell it at TJ (I think).

Jalapeno Hot Sauce – This is my favorite product by far. I got it pre Whole30 and was ecstatic to find out that I could still have it with my eggs in the morning. I love spicy food and it’s really the only condiment I will add.

Organic Tahini – Whole30 wrote a lot about finding Tahini or maybe I read a few things on it…I don’t really eat Tahini, but I bought this anyway. I have yet to try it, but it’s organic and Whole30 compliant. I just thought it was a cool product.

Organic Coconut Cream – I also have yet to try this, but it was a new product on their shelf that caught my eye and I’m still deciding what to use it with. I’m sure it would be amazing with a curry. I saw a recipe for a vegan purple sweet potato pie yesterday, and post Whole30 I am definitely making it and using this to make the whipped cream. (I was a little bummed I missed PI day).

Marzano Tomatoes – These are better than cherry, plum, heirloom cherry tomatoes by far. I love that on the package it says to keep it out of the fridge (as you should do with all tomatoes). San Marzano tomatoes are sweet and delicious in salads. They’re the closest to fresh, picked off the bush tomatoes as I could get at a grocery store. TJ also has Kumato tomatoes (which are brownish in color) but if it isn’t tomato season, they’re also great in flavor because they tend to be year-round tomatoes.

Wild Pink Salmon – Canned – This salmon comes out of the can with its’ skin on. I believe it’s a whole salmon. I didn’t have canned salmon before and I know it exists in other grocery stores. Texture-wise, it’s SO much softer than tuna and not as dry. I’m glad I bought this and tried it.

Albacore Tuna- Simply packed in water with nothing added. Still a good product, as good as canned tuna can get.

Organic Coconut Oil – Though I used clarified butter for my cooking, I enjoy the coconut oil when I want the sweeter flavor in my foods (so as mentioned that hearty veggie mix with eggs). Their coconut oil is SUPER coconutty.

Maldon Sea Salt- The most superior salt to any cooking salt. The flakes are larger, so you get more flavor per sprinkle, but also because they’re larger, you end up using less. I really don’t think I got this from Trader Joe’s, but they also have the same thing and it’s called Pyramid Salt.

I know that there is a plethora of other Whole30 compliant items (that I get regularly), but the list is long. So, if you’re looking for a store to shop at, TJ is my choice for Whole30 meals. I know other stores sell these things (like Sprouts, WholeFoods, heck even Costco) but my loyalty to Trader Joe’s stands. There is just a warmth and comfort to shopping at Trader Joe’s that is irreplaceable to my soul.

 

 

Daylight Savings

I’ll always go back to the rule I made at the beginning: I won’t let Whole30 stress me out more than it does me good. For me, wedding planning and first-year teacher planning are equally large beasts I am tackling. So, I officially sacrificed Whole30 optimal plan for sleep, a movie, and working out yesterday. My little brother came over on Saturday and I mentioned going to a birthday party. Well, we stayed out pretty late and then the time changed, so I opted to sleep in (which isn’t very late for me). I woke up feeling great and did my morning workout (later than I normally eat breakfast) and about 3/4 of the way into the workout, I felt WIPED. I finished the workout, realized I burned 600-something calories and decided to eat. Since I had pretty much skipped breakfast, I ate a normal Whole30 first meal. Then, I decided to relax and watch a movie, instead of work/wedding plan, because man, I haven’t touched the TV in a month for entertainment. I actually still ended up grading papers, but because I opted to relax, I kind of had snacks for lunch and then prepped and ate a normal dinner. So, it was my first day on Whole30 that I didn’t follow an “optimal” plan, and damnit, my emotional well-being needed that mini break.Having a few hours of letting my food intake slide off the golden advice should be as blissful as it was to me in the moment I needed it for my sanity. Was everything still compliant, YES…but it just wasn’t the “best” way to eat.  Today, I’m compliant as hell and ready to rock again tomorrow.

Post Whole30 Plan

I was just using my fiance as a sounding board about what I am going to do post Whole30 as I am just a day over a week from being done with my 30 days. I feel like I’m the type of person who does not like planning the details, but I do need a big picture, long-term plan to help me carve out goals. We both concluded that Whole30 has been a relatively easy adjustment for me and that I really haven’t had any cravings for anything non-compliant. For example, yesterday was a day FULL of temptation (bridal shower with chocolates, desserts, a birthday party with flip cup and beers galore) but I felt completely comfortable in my own skin navigating to not indulge. Nor, did I feel like I was missing out on anything. My social anxiety was also less apparent and I didn’t feel the need to drink to socialize and again, I felt more present in my interactions with the people surrounding me.

So, I think my post Whole30 plan is really to stick to Whole30. As recommended in the book, it is of course exhausting to be 100% Whole30 for the rest of my life. So, here’s my general guideline:

  • I do love travel and I do love food and drinking, but I think I will reserve all of the non-compliant foods to special occasions (like my wedding) or to taste other people’s creations.
  • I will continue eating Whole30 as much as possible and stop calling it Whole30 after these 30 days :P.
  • I also LOVE baking, so I want to be able to do that and taste my creations without overindulging.
  • Whole30 has changed my relationship with food and I do hope it’s for the rest of my life. But if I ever feel like I need a realignment, I will just jump back in 100% for 30 days.

I know I still have a few more days so I will update as things come up. I think my final thought for today is that if anyone decides to do Whole30, read about the many different perspectives out there. My friends have all gone about the Whole30 in their own personalized ways and all that matters is that it works for them!   I use this blog to journal how I’m feeling day to day and about my journey, but I have a friend who shares amazing recipes she’s doing. There are many other resources too,  but here are links to their blogs : So Pretty So Skinny  &  The Whole Pony. Lastly, I’m also not saying Whole30 is the only way to change your relationship with food, but it’s the one I can say worked for me :).

Whole30 Common Misconceptions

Today is my day 20, which means I’m 2/3 of the way through by the end of tonight! Throughout this process, anyone I have talked to who is not in my Whole30 support clan have said many things. Some supportive, but some extremely common misconceptions, and I would like to squash these misconceptions:

  • That sounds so hard – It’s not hard!! It is hard waking up day after day with little to no energy and to crash after your meals. Buying your food for the week and cooking your meals is so worth it, especially when you have the energy to do it!
  • That sounds like so much prep – This all depends on YOU. If you can not live without condiments and certain things, then it might be. However, the Whole30 should also be an exploration into foods that you don’t normally eat that can be delightfully surprisingly delicious (and nutritious). For example, no combination of eggs and veggies could ever be boring to me. Cook with herbs, cook with spices, get hot sauce that’s compliant. But, don’t rely on things that you would’ve eaten pre Whole30 that might lead you to fall into a trap. If you’re eating cauliflower rice because you miss rice, that might lead to a pitfall post Whole30. Eat cauliflower rice because it’s easy to cook and will not make cooking frustrating. I’m a purist in that I truly enjoy the taste of vegetables no matter how they come and will not go the extra mile to prep them otherwise. However you go about your Whole30 by day 12-16, you’ll have so much energy, I’m sure you won’t mind the prep.
  • It sounds like you’re going to be eating air – I’ve been eating MUCH more on the Whole30 than I have been the past few years. There are so many options and the inclusion of a protein at every meal ensures that I am getting enough to eat. I mean, I get this comment when I say I’m pescatarian. I’ve learned about a gamut of vegetables that keep me entertained. But speaking of loading up on protein it leads to…
  • It sounds like you’re going to blow up on all that protein – I, in fact, have stayed away from the scale (surprisingly) so I don’t know if I’ve “blown up”. However, when I catch my reflection in the mirror, I do feel I “look” more lean. My workout progress pics have become a bit stagnant, but my body feels firmer. For what it’s worth, my pants are also looser. It’s the same science behind any sort of eating…you should eat as much as you need and more if you’re working out. I am much more aware of my body and my body knows when to tell me that I’m hungry. Which leads to…
  • You must be hungry all the time – I feel much fuller (emotionally and physically. Whole30 gently nudges me to eat before I ever get into the hangry stage because I am much more mindful of the signals my body is sending me.
  • What about drinking– This all depends on the friends you have. If you have friends who will only hang out with you if you drink, then maybe it’s time to reevaluate friendships. Luckily, most adults are respectful of other adults’ decisions.
  • I’m thinking about starting it, but I have “xyz” event planned – There is no better time to start than NOW! I could’ve waited for after my Texas trip or wedding to start this, but I am so glad I didn’t wait. Now I have more energy and clarity and less anxiety when it comes to wedding planning. In fact, our DJ had to hand us off to another DJ recently and I did not so much as bat an eyelash. I feel like before, this would’ve bothered me.
  • I could never do that – Trust me, the non believer in me would be able to have told you the same thing a few years ago. “I could never wake up at 4:30 to start my workouts before work” “I could never not eat sugar”, but you can! When you see the benefits of both working out and eating healthy and what it does to your mindset and energy, I doubt you’ll ever want to turn back. In fact, our clan has been hashing out what we are going to do after this Whole30 thing. One thing is for sure, I’ve learned to stay away from toxic foods. In turn, it’s also helping me learn how to recognize toxic behavior in others and how to deflect it.

80% vs 20%

I remember in my nutrition class for school, our teacher kept reiterating that 80% of the population knows what it takes to be healthy and only 20% actually follow the guidelines. Well, I’m definitely in that 20% and I am just going to say, it is SO worth it! It helps that my friends have also reached this level of clarity, energy, and overall kick-assedness.  I’m not sure if I ever want to go back to how I was eating before, even though it was considered “healthy”. I don’t think anything would stop me from continuing to eat this way. I am way more in tune with my body and for the first time ever, food fuels me. I’ve always felt sluggish after a meal and have on occasion, just passed out after eating. Now, I know when I need food and my body thanks me for the food I’m putting into it. So, now that I have all this energy, I feel like I can accomplish anything (including cleaning the house and doing all of mine and my fiance’s laundry on a weekday). Today, I got a surprise observation by my principal (which usually completely gives me anxiety), and I couldn’t feel more confident and alert. But “tiger blood” is not immune to everything, as evidenced from my energy dip after Austin, TX. So, my word of caution is to be mindful of how much you are taking on and knowing when to harness the energy to relax. I did cut down my portions (not on purpose, I think I’m just feeling less hungry) and I also think that contributed to my two sluggish days. So, I’m amping it back up to compliment my workouts. Below are some of the meals I’ve had these past few days…

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(Left) Salmon with a cilantro/olive oil/lemon juice blend, kale, spaghetti squash, zucchini, tomatoes and mushrooms. (Right) – Kale, scallops, cauliflower and broccoli rice with eggs and green onion.

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Today’s seafood blend mixed with oregano, lemon, and salsa with brussel sprouts and tomatoes.

Takeaways from the day:

  • It’s nice to have friends who understand this new sense of clarity. In fact, it feels a bit pretentious to talk about how great I feel to other people.
  • My relationship with food has changed a LOT.
  • I now feel the need to share with EVERYONE what they can cut out when they tell me a body ailment. But, I totally refrain.
  • Today, I tried to convince some of my students to do this as a science experiment for the science fair.
  • My mindset has changed completely and I am consumed with staying healthy. My priorities have become working out and eating Whole30
  • I’m exactly one month away from my wedding, so of course that is my other priority :).

Ch-Ch-Changes

I woke up this morning feeling like all of the life I regained had been drained out of me. As discouraging as it was, I went through my normal routine: ate breakfast, got to school, taught, rested at recess, taught, ate a lunch, taught, had a staff meeting, then I left immediately after. To be honest, these last few weeks, I have not stayed at school later than I should have, especially if I did not complete my workout in the morning.

So, after I got home, feeling drained, I did something that I have not done this Whole30, I took a nap. Well, I actually ate some almond butter, a few hazelnuts, then I napped for 20 minutes. I think my body is kicking me in the behind for staying up late all weekend and then continuing to push myself to doeveryfuckingthingontheplanet. I think it’s also telling me that I need more calories pre and post workout. So, I listened to my body and made sure that my post workout snack was more substantial than I normally eat. I didn’t let myself feel guilty for the almond butter and now I’m feeling a little bit more human. I also gave myself a mental high five for sticking to the workout. With that said, I’ve noticed a few substantial changes to my mindset, body, and overall lifestyle these past few weeks. This is layered between Whole30 and my workouts as well.

My changes:

  • Less anxiety about allofthefuckingthingsihavetodo…I literally, just do it and get it done without much drama.
  • My skin has completely cleared up (thank god my period has ended to probably contribute)
  • My body feels firmer, less squishy parts
  • My energy (except for today) has been amazing.
  • I’m much more productive, yet less stressed. I haven’t sat down and watched TV for the past month.
  • My life no longer revolves around work, I am definitely taking care of my health first, which leads me to have a holistically more positive outlook on life.